Life & its curve balls!

First up I’d like to say hello to one of my lovely followers, Linda in the UK. Thank you for your kind message Linda. Sorry to hear about your health, wishing you a good recovery and I hope you have a lovely birthday on Friday, I’ll be thinking of you❤️ You are damn right too, we are not going anywhere!!

This is surely an interesting journey that I am on. It’s a bit of a steep learning curve and I’m becoming familiar with new medical jargon and expanding my knowledge of terminology that I am familiar with, but had not really taken the time to fully understand.

I had another biopsy today on my errant lymph node. It was a bit painful, they had to top up the local anaesthetic after the first pass through. That helped. Results from the biopsy will be through by next Tuesday.

I asked if I could go for my morning run tomorrow, but no – can’t risk a haematoma. I was just being unrealistically optimistic😂 I have been going for runs, dancing and aerobic gym workouts, because my surgeon cleared me to get back into it all. It was absolutely amazing to turn up to my spin class at 6 in the morning, I was so happy to see everyone and they were happy I was back.

My fitness instructor had organized a card for me that everyone had written beautiful messages within. She is an angel! I also went to my favorite Tone class (Les Mills fitness) and my beautiful Tone instructor gave me the best hug! I love my gym family and my dance class family and all my other friends – I am surrounded by a warm tidal wave of love and care and I am truly blessed.

My daughter has been by my side at every single appointment, waiting patiently for various tests and procedures and surgery. Just having her presence helps calm me in those moments when it gets a bit overwhelming. Plus I’d be lost without her – like literally lost. Those hospital corridors are so confusing! If she wasn’t with me, I swear I’d still be wandering around looking for radiology!😂

I am also fortunate to have an incredibly caring and compassionate partner, he is an absolute gem. It is such a delight to be with someone who is genuine, considerate and warm-hearted. I am so, so blessed to have him in my life ❤️

My oncologist appointment is tomorrow afternoon, she wanted to see me before the latest test results come through. I’m guessing she’s going to put my treatment plan in place, probably from as early as this coming week. One good thing with our health system is that they sure are speedy! Will be good to get it all underway.

One thing I do want to talk about is how this journey is different for all of us. My journey is not the same as the next woman’s journey. My emotions and how I react to the things going on around me are unique to me. I did have a friend tell me that I am obviously “angry,” “isolating myself” and probably thinking “why did this happen to me?”

Well. First up. No, I’m not angry – this is a random thing that has happened and I am dealing with it rationally. It’s like planning for a long-distance race, I have a plan, I know I have to pace myself, I know I will cross the finish line and I know that something might trip me up on the way, but I’m good at picking myself up again and carrying on regardless.

Second – I am not isolating myself. I am surrounded by family and friends. I am out at the gym, dances, dance class, catching up with close friends for coffee, going out with my partner, hanging out with my daughter, going to work and generally having a bloody good time!

Finally, self-pity is not in my lexicon. This could have happened to anyone. It has happened to me, that is a fact. I am dealing with this in the best way I know and I will overcome and I will persevere! Don’t you doubt it!!